My aim for this blog was always to keep it as light-hearted and chatty as I can even when I had to make some tough decisions; no one likes a moaner after all! But the past week or so has been extremely difficult and I wanted to let you know why I haven’t been filling your inbox’s (if you have subscribed – shameless plug) or tweeting away at my normal pace (follow me here?).
This summer was set to be filled with spoiling my little sister who came over to visit me, spending a fun filled week in the south of France with family on our holibobs and then writing, planning and preparing for our trip to South America. But sadly life had a different view of how we would be spending this summer.
My grandma was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive form of terminal cancer which took her from us last Monday. From the original diagnosis to her passing away was just a matter of weeks which I am still trying to get my head around. This wonderful woman who taught me to play solitaire when I bunked off school ill, who was the bargain hunt queen at car boot sales, who was always on the go with a million different projects, whose love for her husband of nearly 60 years was easily evident, who wanted to enjoy life and even after my amazing granddad passed away last Summer she had the strength to come to Paris for my cousin’s wedding and even rode the back of his brothers motorbike! She was a strong, hardworking, wonderful woman and role model, I’m sure I can trace some of my feistyness back to her!
Thankfully I got to see her, hold her hand and say goodbye before she passed away so I have been staying in England to support the rest of my family as they are fantastically doing the same for me. Tetley teabags must be having a spike in sales. Her funeral is next week and I hope we all do her proud, not just on the day but also in the future.
I feel numb and my brain feels so foggy even just writing this short post has taken me ruddy ages. Not great for an aspiring writer. I just haven’t had the energy or creativeness to start writing blog posts, tweets, statuses or anything else. My headspace is full of fuzz and concentrating on the smallest thing takes mammoth effort. I’m sure this is normal after losing a loved one and hopefully won’t last too long as I know my grandma wouldn’t want us to be wallowing, dazed and confused for ever.
I also wanted to kindly ask to bear with me as I have some cracking ideas for this blog and would love it if you joined me on this journey. Sorry for being a sad Sally but I promise I will be back to cheerful happy Katy soon.
